Sunday, October 07, 2007
2:54 AM

less smile for me

less care for you

i am a cold-blooded animal

staring at the air

in a cold-blooded version;

sick of doing all these

praying for a disappearance

and

coming back

with an amazing outlook;

more and more people getting to know it

but less and less people understand it

so

let it hibernating

for just a century

we

wait ,

and

see.


i say it,

i mean it.

i hate explaining "i mean it" even when i apologizing.

if you got a chance to read here, just wish you could understand.

_________________________________

i told you that you are good

because i believe that you are not bad

you eyes tell

_________________________________

and what's my weaknesses??

1. im scared of being shouted at,

it freaks me out

and makes me tear

2. you think im joking

when i seriously mean something

it brings up my hatred

once the gap is formed in between,

its hard to close it again

you say being harsh is good?

sorry not for me.

if i got my reason

if you don't understand

too bad then,

cold-war begins

until the next ice age.

sorry

but i'v already told you.

you think you are mature??

you think you are being considerate??

oh please, if you are,

i won't be here nagging at you already.

when i saw the msg,

it shaked my heart,

and bring me a surge of

jumping down from the train.

because

you

do NOT understand.

you will NEVER understand.



P.S i refuse to listen, asking for help, answering your questions
i will do my part.

so leave me alone.
for goodness sick.

am i happy?
no im not,
im just trying to be......


the used-to-be-me :(









if you read this, then

i wanna

thank you :)

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Crystal Shan Mengqing;
/ WINTEC/SAWIT;
30 march 1989 ;


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